A few times a year I hear from new readers of this street team blog who thank me for the tutorials and inspiration. That means alot to me! In addition to the feedback from regular and loyal crusaders, these notes from the silent (lurking) audience make me feel like my efforts are worthwhile.
A few times a month I see crusaders who take on the monthly prompt and generously share their interpretation. They go out on a limb to offer their perspective and by doing so they motivate us to plug in. I am moved by the personal connection we have made with people around the world simply because we enjoy making stuff.
A few times a week I write down all the ideas I have that I want to share here and the possible ways to present them. Some days I'm super fired up to invest my time in this site. Some days I look back and think about all we have covered and all who have passed through our doors. Some friends popped in for a wave, while others sat down and really got comfortable.
A few times a day I delight in what this street team has done - doors opened, friends made, art explored, self-expression validated, shyness eroded, confidence reinforced,.....but on occasion I wonder if this community I am trying to uphold is really there or just part of my imagination.
Participation ebbs and flows but has been on a steady decline. Players are loyal, but few. There was a time when each month had over a hundred crusaders! While the number of teamers is less and less the hits-per-day to this site is on the rise. Does that mean we have new visitors who are afraid to play along or do they just come by to take the free advice? Not sure. Not sure it matters. Not sure where I'm going with this except I feel like I can talk freely here as it's my place and you choose to gather here.
I'm thinking I will present one final crusade in the format we know and then I will consider how to move forward.
I will never give up being a cheerleader for creativity. I will never give up hope that we can make the world a smaller place by widening our circle of friends.
Maybe it will only take me a month to figure out the new face of crusading. Maybe it will take longer. Send me your positive vibes so the right answer rises to the surface.
I'm playing hookie tomorrow so I will post Crusade No. 52 on Thursday.
EDIT: Wednesday 11:47 pm, I hope you understand I am not fishing for compliments, nor am I whining about the work (because I LOVE doing it), and I am certainly not reprimanding anyone for lack of participation. There are no referees here. Just a coach trying to determine a game plan. I appreciate being able to open dialogue since we are a team. Thank you for your feedback...you make me feel energized!